Pirated Minecraft, a Windows 8.1 and Ubuntu 14.04 Trusty Tahr dual-boot, slightly damp baggies of amphetamine sulphate, skin-picking, hair-twirling, hair-pulling, self-harm, energy drinks, panic attacks until the early hours, sleep paralysis, grey aliens looking over me, shadowpeople, torrenting random Japanese TV, double-dinners, piss-bottles, shock sites, overly-friendly strangers, VampireFreaks, being fucking gr00med by kids my own age and grown adults alike, two-timing emo girls, Suicide Girls, Amour Angels, smoking cigarettes at school, smoking cigarettes at the bus stop, smoking cigarettes at friends’ houses, smoking cigarettes in my room, washing the walls with vinegar and sugar soap in vain, mugs filled with mould, stacks of encrusted bowls and plates, floors littered with all of my earthly possessions, random £10 and £20 notes stored in books on a warped bookshelf, my bus pass, bus pass, where’s my fucking bus pass, next to my bankbook, who the fuck still has a bankbook, McDonalds cups growing their own fungal flora, a fuck-off CRT TV from 1993, flies going up my nose and eating away at my brain, DXM, copious bottles of full-sugar Coca-Cola, extremely large pupils, the remixes, oh all the remixes, GTA V, storing JPS Menthols in the PS2 expansion bay, lolicore choons, lesbian manga, laying on the floor, hopelessly staring at the black mould on the ceiling, trying to recapture a glimpse of pre-2008 joy, a shrill Windows Live Messenger notification: ‘lol someone from school fucking killed himself’ ___ Tags:

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